It's been 283 days,
there r 86,400 seconds in a day, 1,440 minutes, 24 hours, so it means
I've lost you for
24,451200 of seconds,
407,520 of minutes,
6,792 of hours.
But none of that can values how hurt i am.
Seeing u go, seeing u leaving me without a word and i couldn't do anything about it at all.
It's been so long. But i cant even stop from thinking of u. My love for u just grew stronger each day.
It's been so long. But i cant even stop from
thinking of u. My love for u just grew stronger each day.
it's hurting me a lot.
They say move on,
They say forgets
They say find another girl, They say God has better plans for me with
Well, they just didnt get the point, that u
were my best girl,
And i dont expect more or less, better or
i JUST need YOU and u is enough for me, cuz ur my always perfect
It's not that i dont want to accept the fact that ur gone.
It's not about that,
Im just accepting the fact that, I CAN'T stop from
loving u. I tried hard, i prayed hard.
Some may say God doesnt listen to
my prayers, but I say, He has reasons in everything.
I can see
that ur having a good life there, I can see those honest smiles with no
heart-feelings problem anymore. I guessed, u managed to get the life u wanted
most, free from the tense of having me as ur biggest problem, reaching ur
biggest dream to have ur degree with ur friends. :D i smiled, cried in the same
time cuz i noe, for u to have all that precious life and smiles back, it is best
for me not to interfere and knock back and ur door-heart, YEs, it's so painful n
hurtful, but if its all a no man like me could do. I'd let it flows
I'm just jealous that i couldnt be the one who made u
happy now. Now i am the one whos making fake smiles just so people could stop
asking what's wrong with me. :') and Yes i lost with ur Mount Everest Ego.
A friend of mine said, I loved too hard that wen I fall, i
fall too hard that i broke into pieces that no one can glue me back. Well, she's
totally right about that.
These, these things im goin thru now,
is the results of me of not appreciating u before. It's like a monkey with a
flowers. The flower's so pretty but all the monkey sees is a stuff with no
values at all. And YES the monkey, eheem.. me i mean, was wrong. And now he got
All he have now is a sole PATIENCE, waiting that
perhaps, someday in the future, u might realize who i am to u again. I noe, we
all noe, the numbers r still going, every seconds, is a pain in the ass for me,
but what can i do ? except wait and hopes God hears my prayers, and send u back
to me. Im sory i dissapoint u before. Im sorry i was such a jerk, no words could
describe how stupid i am, but this stupid man called me.
you till the end of you life. :') STILL and always do. They say loving alone
seem stupid. IDGAF.
I love you, thats wat matter MOST.